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for the last three or so days i have been happy, the type of happy that makes me

worried, expecting a big crash to come at the end of it all. I think the vitamins are

beginning to help even me out. B complex, magnesium and calcium are a godsend. Or

it could be that the prayer and meditation is finally working.

I got two organizers today and went through a year of paper, it is amazing how much of

it i kept. My life is now organized in 30 folders and there is this amazing sense of

accomplishment. I think i am finding new ways of ignoring all the work I have to do.

Cleaning, reading, walking and of course the old means of escape is always there as well.

I have started shooting some film again, true sign that I am in between lost and found. On any

other day I would find myself deep in anxiety but something out of the ordinary, extraordinary is happening to me. In the last few days I have seen a lot of art and my mind seems sponge-ish and my tongue looser. I am doing all sorts of multi tasking and it finally seems as though some sort of normalcy is creeping back in after the hell of last year.

Or i just could be having a good day.