for the last three or so days i have been happy, the type of happy that makes me
worried, expecting a big crash to come at the end of it all. I think the vitamins are
beginning to help even me out. B complex, magnesium and calcium are a godsend. Or
it could be that the prayer and meditation is finally working.
I got two organizers today and went through a year of paper, it is amazing how much of
it i kept. My life is now organized in 30 folders and there is this amazing sense of
accomplishment. I think i am finding new ways of ignoring all the work I have to do.
Cleaning, reading, walking and of course the old means of escape is always there as well.
I have started shooting some film again, true sign that I am in between lost and found. On any
other day I would find myself deep in anxiety but something out of the ordinary, extraordinary is happening to me. In the last few days I have seen a lot of art and my mind seems sponge-ish and my tongue looser. I am doing all sorts of multi tasking and it finally seems as though some sort of normalcy is creeping back in after the hell of last year.
Or i just could be having a good day.
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